One in eight couples face infertility. It should be a common topic with tons of easily attainable resources but no one talks about it. Some people believe infertility is ignored because the topic deals with sex. In case that’s true I want to do it first and move on.
Sex. Screwing. Doing the naughty. Legs up in the air or from the rear. Wet and dirty; just like on the Discovery Channel. It’s about the birds and the bees and we’ve got hungry eyes.
Now that we prudes are all awkwardly uncomfortable I can continue with the less comfortable topic of infertility.
When I started this blog I felt keeping infertility to myself was driving me crazy. I hoped I wasn’t alone. When I thought about letting go and braving the world I hoped I would find friendship. I wanted to help pioneer a community that I could understand.
I had this great idea of being a voice for change. I imagined a world where people would come together to lift us up in support. I want to see every market selling pink and blue ribbons.
Every October it’s a reminder for me the potential we have to share our suffering in a positive way. You can’t leave the house without seeing pink everywhere, being asked to participate in 5k runs or donate to the Susan G. Komen Foundation. To be fully supportive of women they need to add the color blue. October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Infertility and fertility need to be addressed. My mission is to spread the message shamelessly.
To do that, I have to inform you that this is National Infertility Awareness Week. To kick off the week I attended the Utah Infertility Awareness Seminar. I learned so much and met some really wonderful people. These are all people who want kids or wanted them. They came together to share their frustrations, learn better ways to become parents but most of all to be in a room of infertiles that have hope. They were there hoping for pregnancy, for surrogacy, for egg adoptions and fostering to adopt or dreaming a pregnant Mom would choose them. When all else failed they were there hoping to find peace at the end of trying.
These were women who have dreams of children stamped on their hearts and many have had to change that dream. That is what one of the groups was all about. Couples lined the rows to listen to Monica Ashton help them find peace and healing when you face the reality that your family will not be what you thought it would. I sat there and listened to one woman discuss how she came to realize that a family of two is still a family. So often we want to ask people when they are going to start a family but they do that when they get married. They already are a family.
Even Isaiah had a laugh when Josh Redfern got up and talked to us about infertility from a guys point of view. Both of us sat there thinking, “That’s me he’s talking about.” We hoped each other was really paying attention and it was because of what he said that we talked the whole way home, decided we weren’t done so we stopped to walk around the mall a few times until we had worked through so many things we felt we could never say because of that gender gap between us. That is why I say I learned a lot. He didn’t tell me he’d changed his mind but at least he understands why I act the way I do.
We shouldn’t have needed to go to this big event to find a way to discuss how infertility affects us. Why is it so awkward to bring it up? Why does he change the subject? These were things I need to know. Again, I shouldn’t have needed a seminar to learn answers. I’m glad I went. It was helpful but these are the things we could find easily if our culture was more open to sharing their infertility. We so often carry the burden alone. Would is surprise you to know that studies at places like Harvard have placed this stress on the same level as terminal illnesses like Cancer? I’ve never been so upset or consumed with something in my life.
Those blue and pink ribbons are where we start the discussion. We may not be able to say it out loud but we can pin this message to our shirts, our cars, our window decals, our web pages and our key chains. Our friends who get it will know we stand for something. That ribbon can lead to conversations that lead to change. Your friends will be wearing those ribbons to honor you and in the years to come October will become the month of pink and blue. People will know this is the week to recognize those who cope with infertility.
Making the decision to be open about my struggle is harder than I imagined but I have a ribbon I display everywhere I go. My goal has become to be open enough to talk about my infertility in the same way as I talk about my marriage, or where I come from. I don’t want to be ashamed of this integral part of who I am any more than I want to struggle with it. That is why I have started the process of working with Resolve to open a support group in my area. I'm still in training and we'll see where that goes in the weeks to come but it all starts this week. This is the week I change my mindset from closed to open. So hug your infertile friend, wear your ribbon and ask to start a discussion. We can’t ignore infertility if we want to find the answers to end it.
To help you understand infertility you can check out these links below:
http://www.resolve.org/infertility101 (Basic understanding of the disease of infertility.)
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